Weekend Moments....

The Concept of "Mothering" this Weekend....

Saying goodbye to the kids as I leave for an overnight away, still struggling with that "I'm going to miss something" feeling that always gnaws at me.
It's that feeling that keeps me home with them.
I feel like I have it more than the average person.
A very raw feeling I experience.

Listening to a friend laugh her worries away...but knowing that they really are big worries and needing to feel like it's all going to be o.k.
I told her it all will be, with hope in my eyes for her.
She's tired and unsupported and struggling and I wish I could take it all away for her.

Driving by my old childhood home yesterday...on a cold, sunny morning.
I wasn't prepared for what I saw or felt.
A "For Sale" sign out front. Another family leaving.
We were there for 25 years.
The obvious recession oozing from every store, neighborhood, car and business still surrounding it.
The house, and street overall, still stands...looking just fine.
No one knows all our memories.
I stood outside and suddenly started to cry.
The wall I played tennis, the little door to hold treasures.
My bedroom window.
The kitty in the garden.
The basement window where I sat and sang.
I stood on the porch and looked around....the street I rode my bike, drew with chalk.
Thanks to my parents for the childhood still in my head.

A friend's terrible news. Her spouse died on Sunday after a year-long battle with a brain tumor. Little kids, all alone.
And through the clouds and storm, she decides she must celebrate her son's 3rd birthday party this Friday.
He needs to eat cake, get some toys and play with friends.
THIS is motherhood at it's bravest and most profound moment.
Creating normalcy and fun in your least normal moment.
The show must go on.